Today was mildly interesting. Corey came over for a little while. He needs to move into his own place by October and we discussed the possibility of me moving in with him if we're still together. I'll be surprised if we're not. I really think that would be awesome. At that point I'll be assistant manager so I'll be able to afford half the rent. Becoming assistant manager really helps my life in amazing ways. Who would have ever thought that being responsible would actually pay off?
I'm hesitant about moving though. I want to be on my own and living my own life, but I don't want to leave my mother all alone. She really needs me and I think leaving would be incredibly selfish. She knows that I need to start my own life and the only way to do that is to fly the nest, but she's so sick. And she never takes care of herself. I would worry so much if I left. I'm a bit stuck right now, but it doesn't matter. I need not make a choice today.
I wish I was a more social person. I don't mean going places with my friends. I do that all the time. But I mean not just with those friends. I wish I could stand the idea of hanging out with a group of people I only sort of know. But I really can't. I loathe the idea of meeting people off that Godforsaken myspace too. Not just because 99% of them are freaks but because I don't like hanging out with people that aren't close to me. That's also why I never hang out with the guys that ask me out at the mall. Corey was some anomaly for me. There was something strange about that whole thing. I really need to get high and think about it.
I'm hesitant about moving though. I want to be on my own and living my own life, but I don't want to leave my mother all alone. She really needs me and I think leaving would be incredibly selfish. She knows that I need to start my own life and the only way to do that is to fly the nest, but she's so sick. And she never takes care of herself. I would worry so much if I left. I'm a bit stuck right now, but it doesn't matter. I need not make a choice today.
I wish I was a more social person. I don't mean going places with my friends. I do that all the time. But I mean not just with those friends. I wish I could stand the idea of hanging out with a group of people I only sort of know. But I really can't. I loathe the idea of meeting people off that Godforsaken myspace too. Not just because 99% of them are freaks but because I don't like hanging out with people that aren't close to me. That's also why I never hang out with the guys that ask me out at the mall. Corey was some anomaly for me. There was something strange about that whole thing. I really need to get high and think about it.